notice me, take my hand.
Monday, February 9, 2009 12:08 AM
I've been keeping myself in the dark, I haven't been going out with friends or cousin(s). Always giving excuses and school assignment(s) is keeping me busy. Getting really outdated but who cares right? As long I'm happy that's enough. Besides I'm always having headache and I've become a very hot tempered person now. Yes, I always throw tantrums to my little brother. Be thankful you're not my younger sibling. I always feel moody, and I always come across this feeling which I hope will go away real soon.Fly away,please. I tend to avoid conversations if I'm not close to that person. Like an emo kid. I don't have directions anymore when I talk about things (whatever that means). I get weak/tired and get upset easily. I need English tuition so my English won't get rusty. As it is getting worse as days passes by, practice makes perfect right? Hm, wtvr. I've been skipping Studio Production classes and I'm unhappy about it. I've missed alot of things, missed some chapters. I get lost and lose concentration whenever Ms J teaches and I really want to score well for this module. I've slacked too much last year and I'm trying to quit the bad habit. But bad habits die hard, yes, I'm worried that these are only words and no actions will be taken. Mum is hoping that I'll end up in Poly but I don't have any faith or confident in myself because I'm never a study person. Have never studies for important exams, yes she doesn't know that. If I did, might have scored better but I'll let it pass. No point bragging about it as I can't rewrite history. Well, atleast I'm thankful I'm still studying in school and still have the chance and hope. Oh shut up shkn. Okay I know this is boring but oh well. I really got nothing much to talk about. Except the fact that Mum bought me shoes for jogging and she's been pestering me to jog and do varies sports. Dad has been talking about how much I've grown, and gained weight. I know they care and want me to look pretty. But it's really stressful and annoying most of the times, I haven't been excersing since forever all out of the blue they want me to try every sport that exist. I'll die, for sure. Still, I hope their hard work and care will be worth the time. I need to encourage myself and stop depending on others for encouragement. Nothing is impossible right? Let's see how it goes
. And right now, I need some sleep.before your love.
