what about my life?
Wednesday, June 25, 2008 2:35 PM
My nights aren't getting any better, in fact, it's getting worse. I just can't get myself to sleep, no matter how hard I try. I don't know what's wrong, but I'm just afraid. It's been days or maybe weeks, no, nearly a month since I'm having difficulties to sleep. I tried to calm myself, well, maybe I wasn't tired/not sleepy. But it's happening almost everyday, you see. I don't want my eye bags to get worse. I don't want panda eyes. I don't want to have wrinkles due to lack of sleep. When I don't get enough sleep, I'd be attack my a bad headache, like little kids poking you straight into your brains, pulling all your veins. Fuck. Life has still been the same, boring, meaningless, dead. Well maybe, I miss studying. I miss Maths, at least when Math lessons is next on my timetable, I know it's time to crack my brains, so it'll be thinking and work. But look at it now, I bet it's dead. Sleeping, snoring inside my thick bloody skull. Plus, my stomach has been giving me problems too lately. I'd be attack by a very bad stomach ache all of sudden, and I'll have to rush to my bathroom. I'm getting tired of sitting on that toilet bowl, and my stomach will be so painful, I swear I feel like cutting it open. After spending so much time on the toilet bowl, and having to bare with the pain, my shit doesn't want to come out from my ass, alright no, maybe just a little bit. Fuck you. Still, I swear it's killing me. This might be disgusting, but oh well. I didn't force you to read right? Smiles. Let's not get into more disgusting things, hahaha. So what shall I brag about? Hmmm.Do you know that, I miss spending time with my bestfriend?
Do you know that, I want more outing with my babies?
Do you know that, I miss tons and tons of friends?
Do you know that, I really want an outing with Shahida/Srii/Ifah/Shima/Liyana/Seri/Eerah/Mas/Shikin etc?
Do you know that, how suckish my life is right now?
Do you know that, I wish to have more outings with people I miss?
Do you know that, I'm sick and tired of life?
Do you know that, I wish to built a time machine, and go back to 2007 or earlier?
Do you know that, I thought of deleting my friendster account?
Do you know that, I love mummylove and daddylove alot?
Do you know that, I wish to have a work?
Do you know that, I want need more money, so I can spend?
Do you know that, you are all missed by me?
Do you know that, I miss PG(habbo) people,that 2005 batch?
Do you know that, I wish to be pretty, and make my life more meaningful?
Do you know that, I got a B(very good) for my Digital Photography examination?
Do you know that, I got a C(good) for my Video Production examination:(?
Do you know that, I got GPA 2.5, shitttttttozx!! :(
Do you know that, I fucking have no hope to apply to Poly next next year? PUNDEK!
Do you know that, I have no idea whether I passed or failed?
Do you know that, do you know that?
Uhhh, there's still a lot more to brag. But it'll take me till tomorrow or maybe more days for me to think. I miss you, loves, hmm. &HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY NURUL!
