i know that he loves me, cz it obvious.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009 3:14 PM
"when i thought, i was that stranger i was staring at, i turned away breathless.. there i was, suddenly feeling so lost.
Why do people have mixed feelings? And what do they feel, when they admit that's what they're feeling? Why are we asking so many questions to ourselves, leaving us so confused at the end of the day. Why? Why? Why after so many thoughts of it, it makes me feel insecure. I'm feeling rather down. No idea why, it's like, I do not recognize the air I breathe anymore. And it makes me wonder, what I am doing here? I know, it's wrong to question myself like that, cz we're here for a purpose. But at some point of time, I just can't help but think. Right now, all I feel like doing is, close my eyes and only wake up only when I want to..
Feeling like running away from something, I am clueless about. Is this normal? Hope so.
Going through songs from the ipod, tryna find the right beat,to satisfy the hunger for it.. But I just can't find it. This is really frustrating,if I must say. The letter "Y" on my keyboard is really pissing me off, cz it's not working properly. Damn it.
Anws, school reopening next week. I'm never ready for it, but lifes go on... Hope it's gonna feel great meeting the mates again after sometime. Holidays been, as usual, boring. I hate waking up in the morning, why? Because, I wake up not because I'm done sleeping. It's because my granny would shout at me at the time she wants me to wake up. It's really annoying and bothering me. Cz, I'll end up not having enough sleep. Hate. That. Alot.
Right now, I just don't wanna breathe. Cz, when I take a breath, I get hints of head spins. Does that make sense? Hope so. Will try update again soon.
Never wanted a day to end so fast, but today. I want time to tick faster.
