sense of emergency.
Slowly, I'm feeling so irritated and disgusted with the way my little sibling's acting. Every morning, every moment he thinks of Restaurant City, ok every second la horh. Since he's like on the computer from morning to late night, he'll keep asking. How much money I have now, points bla bla. Gosh, all he think about is getting more things than me. When it's just a silly game, for idk what sake la horh! He'd insist in sleeping in the living room, so he'll be able to sleep late just to watch his money increase. See, when a small kid get hooked up on such games, tsk. I regretted, regretted staring the game, or shall I say help him creating a FB account. He's so young lah, man small kids nowadays. Sometimes, I just feel like hitting them hard in the head. On the other hand, my past is slowly coming back to me. Glimpse of what had happened, kept flashing in my tiny head at some random moments. And I can't help but feel like crying? But, I'm already cry-less(that's when I become sad and I'd tend to get angry fast?) about that. The feeling's more to pissed, sad,irritated alot la. Forgetting is so hard, since things went about for 2fucking years. -Breathe in and out- I need a break, a holiday to somewhere peaceful, Mummmmmmmy you're my only hope. Oh, and I'm currently sad too, and almost broke down, due to some new Dad told us when he came back from the hospital. I don't think I'm gonna say it here openly, but whatever it is. I hope you're gonna be oh so fine, and get real well. I love you, only God knows how much I love you. My mind's so messed up right now, I just can't think right. And I'm sorry for the messy post, I know, I know everything's everywhere. But, I can't help it. K, hope things get fine just like they were, xoxo.
"before you fly, leave me a love letter.
&when I miss you, the words that filled the blank paper,
would always remind me how much you've loved and cared for me"
