i'd like to get over it..
Monday, November 24, 2008 11:00 PM
Taurus : Tasks will require greater intensity than usual today. Your mind is a bit fuzzy. Any time you spend your money today, whether you're just buying a cup of coffee or making a down payment on a home, the task will require greater intensity than it usually does. Numbers and financial issues are just hard for your brain to wrap its mind around right now and you could become quickly overwhelmed by interest rates, surcharges and taxes. It's not a good day to make any big business commitments, either. Wait until your left brain wakes up again.Sometimes, I'll feel down for no reasons and crying seems to be the best solution, as many of you might have heard "crying makes you feel better" but I'm just too tired of crying. The urge to walk away from everything has always been there, but I hate being a coward and run away from things in life. Because, one thing for sure, I want to be strong. Strong enough to go through the hardest and complicated problem ever in the future.. I wish I could pass things that I don't wish to do, but what's the meaning of life is that exist? I envy others who are really happy in life, and eventhough they have hard times, they react as if nothing happened? I could help others, by why couldn't those advise I gave work on myself? Is this part of "life is unfair" mhmm I wonder.. I'd like to apologies to all, if I kept saying BRB (sound familiar?) but I won't come back later or worst, I didn't reply you.. I'm seriously sorry, it's not because I'm arrogant but I just don't feel like myself? I don't know how to elaborate to make you understand but I'm sort of "under pressure" -inside joke- Mhm. Let's say it this way, I don't want to hurt you, because I've been very moody, even if I am cheerful, I tend to be quite sensitive nowadays. Don't ask me why, but I guess it's because I'm lacking of sleep. Like alot of sleep! Eyebags got worst, pimples grew more :( One thing for sure, try not to use LO'REAL facial wash! It made my face worst, I mean real real worst. Sigh, dear God, I hope you're listening! I wish I could have lovely dreams every night. I'd like to be in a green green and colorful open space. With beautiful things, creatures. Butterfly, birds chirping would be best.. Or, can I hug late Grandpa? I'll like to sit, and smile at him. Tell him how much I miss him, tell him how much I love him and I miss the times he used to call my name from far, the moments he gets home. Pamper me, put me on his laps, carry me to make me laugh.. I'm sad because I couldn't remember those times we spent together, I depend on the stories Daddy tell me. He used to told me, I liked to pinch you at a specific part, haha. Well, I miss you, I miss you like I miss nobdody else. God willing, we will meet again. And I hope, you'll get to meet Granny too. I bet you miss her:') I bet she misses you too, heh. I hope you're happy at where ever you are, and oh God bring him close to you and stay him away from hell fire.. Okay, let's stop being mushy. I gotta go now, I wish I could have more words to describe myself now, I'm sorry again for not really being myself these few weeks, I still love all of you. Goodnight lovelies.
