loved ones<3.
Thursday, September 11, 2008 6:49 PM
It's been quite sometime, since my family and I went back to our village at Malaysia, Muar. Everyone of us were busy with work and school, our time are always occupied, it's been a year plus since we last went there to celebrate Hari Raya, visiting all my grandaunts and relatives houses. My day started with a very sad news, remember in my previous post I said my granny went there to visit one of her sister who is very ill? Well, Daddy, Mummy, lil brother and I thought of going there tonight to visit her, but dissapointingly, she passed away this morning, 5am to be exact. It's quite a painful feeling, because I've missed her so much. I thought I could see for the last time still breathing, I want to see her smile, I'd love to hear her voice. But, I've to swallow all those back because she has left us forever. If only I stayed there, so I could be there when she's sick. The moment I reached her place, her body just reached and looking at the house she used to stay in, moments I spent with her rushed in my mind, replaying back all those good old times. Imagining the places we sat, talked to each other, laughed together, hugging her and all. All I could do was, cry helplessly. Why, why must she go? Before her, one of her elder sister passed away too. It's less than three months, she left us. And now, another one went.. Still I hope, they'll be accepted by ALLAH, rest in peace, amin. I heard, when my brother and granny visited her in the hospital yesterday she was concious, but she couldn't recognise much people. She was in a weak state, and despite that the doctor went to operate her because she had "nana"(I forgot what it's called in english, but it's the yellow thing?) after the operation she was breathless and I can imagine that, I bet it must be very painful for her to hang on. What makes me cried alot was, upon hearing that when the doctors wanted to take her blood from the veins a couple of times. No blood came out, so no choice they had to inside the injection in a vertical manner and etc etc. Imagine, how painful is that?!?! Fuck. I just hope she's okay now, peaceful and happy. (Late) Nek Armah, I love you with all my heart, forever you'll be in my heart(♥) Now, I'm praying I won't lose any close ones for the year. Granny, grandaunt, mummy, daddy, everybody, ya allah, panjangkan lah umur mereka, I don't wanna lose them, please no. [If only I could go back to the past, and visit her always, sighs:(]PS. Remembering about the past, it makes me think of my late grandfather, I miss him so so much.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
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