Eh, I'm not desperate for a guy okay. F you!
Wednesday, April 9, 2008 11:05 PM
All those mixed feelings are back to bring me down, but thanks to someone for cheering me up although it just made a smile a little. I'm feeling angry, sad, fooled, destroyed, regretful and everything negative. I feel useless now. I wish someone's here to listen, or worst to worst. I'd love to hug someone and have a shoulder to cry on, sighs. Why must the world be so cruel, even though it's full of ups and down why must it take till 2 years for me to realize all of it? I feel so stupid, sometimes I wonder. Why must a young teenager like me fall in love? They used to say, I'm too young. But why others can be so happy with their own partners by their sides? Although I've moved on long, but my anger have become as high as Mount Everest, and its full of revenge. Although I know, it will make everything even worst. But it's just hard for me to forgive that ass. Too many things have became my memories with that fool. Everywhere I go, almost everything was about the past, sighs. I just don't know how to really forget about everything, and get over it totally. I thought I was over that ass, but I guess I'm wrong. I tend to cry at times when I think about some of them. Oh why must I meet "him" in the first place? Maybe it was better having an imaginary lover or so called bf. So mummy don't have to pay those high telephone bills. As he is always beside me, who cares if people think I'm crazy. I'm just like another teenager who wants to be in love. But oh, I can't deny being single is a great moment because you can have freedom and you don't have to report your daily outings with anyone. But i gotta admit, it's fun falling in love because you won't feel bored. Oh yes, I am a dumbo. Holy ass, so I'm not that strong as I thought yea. Pfffffft. Oh you fool stranger, will you be my imaginary lover? Sighsssssssssssss. Ps. aku tak desperate lah gila, cuma emotional je, taik ah. hahahahahaha. &oh, I miss some fuckers which I fought with and break our friendship because of that ass. I regret okay, hahaha. What the fuck lah Kinz.
