Perhaps I shall stop spending my money, on clothes I know I won't wear.
I hate having the feeling that, you have to get something on that day,
and when you find it just o-k. You buy it, and end up wearing it just once.
I have lots of clothes, I end up hating. Most painful part, sometimes when I like it,
it disappears into thin air!! Magic eh? You think?
Cool eh, NO OK. Zzzzzzzz, I need to shop for proper clothes la):
And I wanna slim down, gah gah gah.
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And,
Happy Birthday Sharifah Hafizah, love kau. Lol.
Sometimes I feel like a lousy friend, I am seriously no good at it, in my point of view.
I don't know how to please someone, perhaps I am too shy to meet new people.
Eventhough I've know someone for a year or two online, when it comes to meeting them.
I just freak out, because perhaps I am not comfortable with myself.
And I'm afraid, they'll be embarrassed walking with me, yes no? I don't know.
OR, maybe I'm got too comfortable at home. Not going out for so long, makes it even harder now.
Perhaps, I am just a useless friend. Well, I'm truly sorry if I've ever let anyone down.
But, I am just me. I can't help it, I will try to change. Still, love you all for being there <3
And, I miss Nur Shahida B ______ a lot. Someone who was always there, we used to be bestfriend, well, I'm not sure if we still are. Cz, we don't talk anymore. Babe, I miss you so much but sometimes I just don't know. At times, I wish we were at the times where we were so close still. I miss everything we do together, I miss you. And I really hope, you're doing good.
And there's a few more people I do miss, I'm sure you know who you are. I do want to go out with all of you, when I'm ready :) I will text you guys, insya allah.
"I need break loose from this shell of mine"
